This week I am busy, busy, busy. I do not think I could have stuffed this week fuller, but it is all good. And, during those busy hours, I also am having a ton of fun editing….
…because, yep I am building my portfolio here. I already have a portfolio, but I figured I better do some building here so that hopeful clients won’t see one of my Germany pictures and want to take their pictures in that location. Although, I am willing to travel for a session; -D.
This young man was such a joy to work with. We had a ton of fun together and laughed a lot. This was the first snap I took. I love it, but more importantly, am thrilled that this is not the money shot. I was super nervous to have a session with someone I did not know; it has been a while since I have been behind a camera doing sessions.
Photography is one area where I constantly question if I have the “right stuff.” So, on my way to this session, I was completely nervous that I didn’t, have the right stuff. I sweated if I would be able to: obtain the quota I set in my head, capture a relaxed photo out of a senior session with a young man, or if any of the pictures would turn out.
I know why I worry so much when it comes to photography because each work of art an artist produces if very much a remnant of their soul. So, to place it in another’s hand and have them not love it is heartbreaking. And sometimes, that fear of heartbreak is enough to make an artist keep their gems hidden away, locked up tight from criticism or rejection.
All of my photos have been taken with my new Samsung Galaxy 5s. I am still trying to figure it out a bit. And, I’ll admit I miss my iPhone, occasionally, for pictures. Camera+ was the best camera app available, and I so wish the company would make an app for the Android world. The one thing I do LOVE about my new phone is the picture quality. It is outstanding, and I am thrilled that I made the switch.
If you feel like you are struggling with light, and you have a cell phone with a camera, pick it up and use it. I am amazed how my light skills have increased since I began seriously using my phone for photos. Today I can easily say that my phone is my go-to camera.
There is much talk, debate, and out right ridicule in the photography world about whether phonography is an honest form of photography. I say when it makes you learn a ton about things like lighting, exposure, and patience to capture your subject just right, then yes, it is a true contender.
She washes the mushrooms and brings them to the counter. She pulls one from the colander and clicks the stem off. I take it and begin slicing as she mumbles, “I wanted to slice them.” I toss back at her, “I want them done a certain way, so, I’ll do it.” Her body slumps, an echo of defeat tracers the movement of her hands against the mushroom stems.
The words returned to my mind, “You always have to be right.” It was quipped with a smile and a laugh, but there was truth in jest.
I surrendered the knife, and she sliced.
We stood side by side, me tending a pan of wilting spinach, her swishing a spoon through sliced mushrooms leaving a wake of butter and olive oil in its path. We stand among aromas and laughter, and words are tracing the counter tops, the cabinets.
And, it is hard this holding on to letting go. It’s hard to set the child free. To let her be who she is to be. How do you set someone free who holds a piece of your heart? But, for now, we stand two hearts working as one.
Hours later they sit side-by-side faces aglow with the reflection of the incandescent screen. They chat about usernames and passwords, and I question what it is they are doing. “Setting up an account, to play the game, mom.” The wafting memory of pre-dinner talk roams the nuances of my mind as recollection fills my senses.
They are stuck and need my help, and for a moment they are children grasping my hand. I guide them through the unknown territory, and then they release me and run off… “Okay, we got it” …alone.